Father Mike Schmitz commented, “. . .use the gift God gave you!”
The movie X-men has always captivated me. It is about a bunch of young people who are called mutants, which deemed them outcasts from society because they were different. Growing up, the mutants never felt they belonged.
Perhaps I could consider myself a mutant – a person growing up with mental illness, depression, and anxiety. I never felt that I belonged. I always felt I was different.
In my book, Random Thoughts, I give examples of realigning my thoughts to better achieve relative happiness. Here goes nothing!
Yes, I am different and I will always be different. But, perhaps this is a gift from God. Being different, I wrote in my journal when I was young and it was full of anger. I would scold, degrade myself, and destroy what little connections I had with my siblings in my journal. I was full of angry emotions. As I grew, I was able to change these emotions by writing even more and expressing myself in writing to others (not unlike in my web blogs and books). According to some of the readers, I am doing a good job and actually helping others. I aligned my thoughts.
Yes, I am different and I will always be different. But, perhaps this is a gift from God. Being different, I was alone a lot as a child. Loneliness crept in. But, being alone, I was able to change this loneliness into time spent in praying which starts off as a oneness. Praying brought me closer to God through just talking to him, to feeling empathy towards others, to discovering peace of mind, to receiving graces from God, and meditating on talking to God. So, I actually am not lonely much of the time anymore. I actually cherish it. I aligned my thoughts.
Yes, I am different and I will always be different. But, perhaps this is a gift from God. Being different, I dwelled on bad thoughts about society in general, as a child. I would ask questions like why people have to die? Why does the news only report bad news? As I grew, this has not changed but I was able to develop dwelling on bad thoughts and showed signs of empathy and compassion towards others. I spent time with people who suffered mentally and was able to be around them when things got bad. Later in life, dwelling on bad thoughts, helped me help communicate with others verbally and in writing. I wanted to help others and so, I began writing books then developed blogging on my website. I aligned my thoughts.
So, I implore you to understand that if you are suffering from mental illness, depression, and anxiety, take that first step – admit you are different. Then, find that gift God gave you and take the initiative to align your thoughts into something good! (I like being a mutant because don’t they save the world? Hahaha)
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