Very often in my mental illness, I find myself faced with the question Should I or Should I not?
On one of many occasions, I was in a relationship with my girlfriend. One day, we began to quarrel in a manner not so holy. In the end, we had offended each other despite in general being good Catholics. Afterwhich, I asked repeatedly,
Should I or should I not apologize to her?
Should I or should I not block her on iMessenger?
Should I or should I not write a letter of apology?
Should I or should I not write a letter of reproach?
Should I or should I not send her a gift of reconciliation?
These questions formed over three days of depression. At the same time, my mind remained in obscurity and much confusion with what was the right thing to do. Am I right or is she right?
I turned to prayer.
Today is the 6th day and I woke up with a clear direction to trust the Lord. To trust that my girlfriend, despite the quarrel, would come to peace through Christ, without my assistance and interference. To trust that, despite the quarrel, I would come to peace through Christ’s providence. Now, I write with peace in my heart and soul and trust in the Lord’s providence.
The question, Should I or Should I not, brought uncertainty in a long six days. I read somewhere that Jesus is always the answer and in my uncertainty after an offensive quarrel, I should turn to prayer and ask for peace.
Your article gave me a lot of inspiration, I hope you can explain your point of view in more detail, because I have some doubts, thank you. 20bet