When I think, I ask to think of holy things.  But tonight here is where I stand as a person with mental disability.

My father talked to me this morning and he said that my husband should be looking for a job instead of doing nothing for the family.

I quoted my father to my husband and he exclaimed!

~ IT IS AS THOUGH I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING!

~ YOU KNOW HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL!

~ I CAN’T STOP DOING NOTHING!  . . .#@$% BECAUSE I TAKE CARE OF YOU GUYS

~ DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH STRESS I GET FROM TAKING CARE OF YOU GUYS

So, under pressure (but feeling relatively calm), I put my husband’s needs before mine and said,

~ Daddy, you should think of the times I was sick and you took care of me.  When I was under the attack of spiritual warfare, you stayed up nine hours with me into the early morning.

~ I am grateful for that.

Not taking care of my needs first, I needed to focus on relaxing my mind because this is what went through it.

~ Satan be gone!  

When my husband and I were in the process of filing for a divorce, bad conversations were exchanged.  These conversations came up in my mind.

~ He said, you don’t think that I am going to ask for a lot.

~ And you don’t believe me

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Honestly, these exchanges of comments did not really happen exactly as the way I wrote.  But the emotions were all real as though I was going to be ill again.  I am glad to report (praise report) that I am stronger than that now.  Through the practice of healthy thinking and prayers to the saints, I am relatively happier in my life now.