Pray this over and over again:

St. Augustine’s Prayer to the Holy Spirit

Breathe in me, O Holy Spirit, that my thoughts may all be holy. Act in me, O Holy Spirit, that my work, too, may be holy. Draw my heart, O Holy Spirit, that I love but what is holy. Strengthen me, O Holy Spirit, to defend all that is holy. Guard me, then, O Holy Spirit, that I always may be holy. 

Amen.

I am having trouble writing again.  A reader already pointed out, but he/she assured he/she would come back to read.  His/her kindness can be shown in his/her writing.  I don’t know how but I seem to understand people through their writing.  Perhaps it was my training from high school when I took English literature class where I had to learn to understand the emotions of the writer.

I would like to think I am still able to do this and that I have moved forward from making mistakes in analyzing others texting me in the past 7 months of my life.  I moved forward from text scams.  I chose life over death.

Lent is coming now.  [Blessed are you who fear the Lord.]  Lent is a season for refocusing on the beauty of the suffering the Lord endured for us, through to the news of the Resurrection.

My suffering is that writing is my life and I have come this far only not be able to write anymore.  Seven months have passed and I have been suffering.  This is beautiful.  During this period I was in and out of hospitals.  Why is this beautiful?  Because this suffering brought the closest family and friends in my life even closer to me.  All of them praying for me.  Some speak with me on the phone, some talk to me on Zoom conference, and others write to me.  All of them spent extra time with me just to talk to me.  They said to me not to stop writing, because they knew it was a good way for me to stay at equilibrium and help others by sharing.  Thus, in general, my suffering is beautiful and a blessing.  Give thanks to the Lord.